god dammit

beautiful

BEAT LIFE

You said “I love you more than the stars in the sky,
but your name just escapes me tonight.”

OH GOD okay

38. talk about songs that remind you of certain people:

all of ‘the lack long after’ by pianos reminds me of my father

‘house of leaves’ by circa survive reminds me of my sister

any song by the grateful dead reminds me of my extended family on my father’s side

way too many songs remind me of singing them with matty at some point

any Dads song reminds me of dean/stacia/matty

my favorite gaslight songs remind me of an ex

‘the years summer ended in june’ reminds me of my best friend casey

any song off deja entendu reminds me of victoria and seeing them last year

‘constant nothing/constant headache’ reminds me of an ex

i could go on forever ha

every single day, no matter what it is

just got new dad punchers, adventures, harms way, hesitation wounds, citizen and moose blood. listening to these at work tomorrow is gonna rule

fruitpunchg:

“ooooohhh” i say as i still dont understand

but will i ever look like ryan gosling 

2. first kiss: my first kiss was at the end of my freshman year of high school with my friend’s girlfriend at the time. i still don’t know why i did it but it felt right and impulsive and it was pouring rain on the beach
4. thing i regret the most so far: not going away to school, not spending more time with my pops when he was around.. a lot of stuff
8. the thing i am most proud of: ahhh idk. i like the person i’ve become, specifically throughout the past three years. i’m also proud of the music i’m writing and the great people i have in my life